Monday, February 6, 2012

I've been reading a great book entitled "Animals as Guides for the Soul - Stories of Life Changing Encounters" by Susan Chernak McElroy   Red is my ramblings.

Here is an excerpt
"Those of us who care about animals often carry painful mental images of suffering animals we have seen or even read about. ( I can cry at an instant if I picture a few photos in my head that will forever haunt me) I have often asked myself why I remain tortured by images of suffering I saw decades ago. What good does this pain do me? What good does it do the animals , who are long dead and gone? (I tell myself no matter what the animal is now dead, it is impossible to be tortured FOREVER) I believe I've found the answer that makes the pain of these mental images my honor rather than my burden. That honor is found in bearing witness. In holding the pain of another beings suffering, I honor that being's soul." (I also feel this because I believe my thinking of the animal is the only kindness this animal has ever received in their short life of torture). 


Another quote she has written is " Your pain is the breaking away of the shell of your understanding."

The book is full of many interesting thoughts so I highly recommend it.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

So finally the overcast Portland that I signed up for is here! I LOVE when it is like this, Id better get used to it because it will be like this for months now. This Halloween will be 1 year that I've been living here. It is so much nicer than Chicago. And none of that tuba driven music at all hours full blast.  That was enough to make one kill oneself.  I cant believe how much more pleasant people are here. Chicago everyone is ANGRY, everything is a race, anything goes with no consequences.  Here there is a civility that I feared no longer existed.  Though I'm learning that my wool and fake fur coats don't really work in the rain. It is a fair price to pay.
I'm up to 399 etsy sales. I never believed that would happen. I will do something special for the 400th sale.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

So I used to be a real true crime buff, I don't know why. I've sold off most of my books these days, just because I have too many and it is torture trying to move with them. Anyway, these missing people stories always interest me. Especially when they think it is a Dissociative Fugue state. http://www.depression-guide.com/dissociative-fugue.htm

Even stranger I came across a psych student's theory that it can be brought on by focusing on say your computer, and there is peripheral vision movement that you know what it is, so you ignore. Well he thinks your subconscious brain CANNOT ignore the action, you are suppressing your fight or flight, and that , if done many hours a day, many days a week, (like working WITHOUT cubicle walls) will cause you to have a nervous/mental/psychotic break and that may cause you to have a fugue episode.

He further poses that THAT is why we now have cubicles in workplaces. so huh

Well he thinks these college students are in this situation. The high stress, using a laptop with surrounding distractions= wandering off at 4am never to be found again.   Interesting.

Here is the link of this writer http://www.visionandpsychosis.net/Jennifer_Wilbanks_Disappearance.htm


Thursday, August 25, 2011

I want to spend today sniffing the top of my cat Luci's head, it smells like peanuts.

Friday, July 29, 2011


I made this just for the Wildcat Haven show tomorrow. Hopefully someone will want it.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

This weekend July 30 and 31st  me and my art will be at Sherwood's Art in the Park benefit show for The Wildcat Haven!!!!  It is at The Stella Olson Park In Sherwood Oregon this Saturday and Sunday from 1-8 pm.  There will be beer, wine, bands and art, all to help the cats at the Wildcat Haven.

http://www.wildcathaven.org/sherwood-art-and-wine-festival/